I hope everyone enjoyed their fourths!
Finally, the weather is looking good. I no longer have to worry about my feet getting wet, my shoes getting damaged by the rain, bumping umbrellas with people in the busy streets of Manhattan, and planning my outfits according to the rain. I like this : )
I've always been meaning to write and update, but I never had the time or I had too much to write about. My thoughts would be everywhere and I didn't know how to contain it all into one nice post. So I'm just going to ramble on and on in this one, ha.
Youth. I'm going to be turning 19 in about three weeks. I still consider this really really young. I want to hurry and be in my 20s and stay in my 20s. People I meet for the first time always think I'm about 22 or 23- one time at work, a lady thought I was 25! Jesus! I don't look thaaat old. Being 19, I feel limited. But when youre in your 20s, those are your prime chapters of your life; where most memories are made. When I'm in my 20s, I want to make the most of it. It's strange to think that our generation is so different from our parents'. For instance, for my mom, by 26, she was married and brought me into the world. However, these days, 26 year olds are still running around here and there, working, and just being young. More and more people try to hold on to their youth these days. It's as if we're all trying to make this place in Neverland. You should always dream big, set higher goals, have high expectations, challenge yourself, take chances, and aspire to be a better person everyday. I've come to realize that I'm a big thinker. Sometimes I think I think too much.. but remember back a few months ago when I repeatedly had second thoughts about my path as a future pharmacist?.. well, it's back again. I dont know.. I just think there is so much more out there than I need to experience and see instead of having the next five years all planned out for me already. I totally love the idea that I'll have a guaranteed job when I graduate and all that, but still... lately, I've just been thinking that maybe I was born to do so much more with my life. There's so many other passions and interests I want to pursue :/ hahah I don't know, maybe I just sound totally silly right now. or maybe my thoughts aren't being translated into words in the exact way I want them to.
I always hate logging into my school's account to check my school stuff aka financial aid status. It's such a pain in the ass. and looking at the large numbers for the tuition is just a bigger pain in the ass. My school is so expensive and sucks! If it weren't for my major, I would immediately leave my school, and go somewhere else. I'd love to go to NYU or some other nice school in the city. I wish my parents could rent an apartment for me in the city for the next five years; it would be soo much better than dorming. The money I have to pay for dorming and the mandatory meal plan as an on-campus resident is such a waste! Hmm.. I think I'm going to persuade my parents veeeery slowly. Great things take time..lolol.
I had so much more to say. alot to say. but considering that just this entry took hours to finish because I kept getting sidetracked and distracted, I simply cannot continue. so I leave you with this.
Weather's lookin' sunny now. Enjoy it! : )